My heart breaks each time you __leave, dive off….To go another’s bed. If I’m wrong so be it, yet your secrecy about it only leads me to one conclusion. No matter how many different ways i play it out in my mind it all comes back to one thing ~ ~none of it makes since~ ~ You very well know, you are keeping all of the truth about this relationship from me. And I do understand why… You do not want me to freak out ; I get it. The truth will not do that to me ; the truth will let my healing begin so I can move on.- }}- I am so sad you second guess all that I say or do.~ Yes i am writing again, started a blog about my life, have been writing you letters in a note book (which i most likely never give you) writing has always been my type of therapy through the toughest of situations. This by far has been the toughest. You and I are still alive we still have to see each other. It’s a more like watching someone you love die slowly before your eyes. I’ve been through losing loved ones on every level and slowly is the worst.-}}- As I have accomplished only bits and pieces of my life from our life together ~ You will see me finish up and be on our way be for you stop and notice we were even here. The sadness it brings me to think of not having you to kiss or hold me in the way only you can. My heart is in pieces and would be regardless of you and i ever ending up not sharing our life together. Never did I conceive an out come in this way. Never have i given so much love & trust in every word.-}}- I have and do recognize my down falls in our relationship, i accept that and I’m truly sorry for that. You also deserve my dearest thanks for your time love and generosity you gave Hope, Dylan and myself . Regardless of what you may think or have concluded we all love you and know you have taught us a lot to carry on with us through our lives.
% i luv u & 4-ever will. u n only u can do things 2 me….luv u~luv me %
